My house has moved beyond disarray into a certifiable disaster area. I am going to clean up all of the toys before I go to sleep, but tomorrow will be my cleaning day no matter what!
Emmaline spent the last half of the day and evening disgruntled. About what, I don't know. She didn't send me a tweet to let me know...LOL! Sadie was having a great day and we were having loads of fun together when out of nowhere she began screaming. I went to change her diaper, and she had a pretty yucky one that caused her a red and sore bottom. I got her "all clean," as she likes to say and medicated and back to the living room full of toys, when no less that ten minutes later, she somehow bit her lip! I'm sure it was just from the fact that she isn't very used to having teeth, but nonetheless, the screaming began again.
I finally got the baby calm enough to get Sadie in the tub, and as soon as I had wrestled her into jammies, more screaming, this time from the other one. So we all went into the living room. I had Sadie occupied with some toys and a sippy cup of milk and I sat down on the couch and nursed Emmaline. Poor Sadie was so tired that she crawled up onto the couch next to us, and I got to snuggle with both of my blessings! I get to hug and kiss babies all day, but it's not the same as kissing my husband... I still miss him and worry about him everyday! I worry about everything. I even worry that as much as I want him to be here with us, it will be completely different when he does get back. I don't know, now I am just rambling which is probably a sign that I should call it a night...
It sucks that Jordan has to be gone so long, but that's just part of the job unfortunately. Sure it's rough now with two little girls and you're by yourself, but you've already proven that you're more than capable of taking care of things.
ReplyDeleteI think that it will be weird with him being gone for so long when he does come back. It's almost like being territorial: he's stepping into unfamiliar teritory and you are the mother there to protect everything.
ReplyDeleteI felt that way when Mike would come home from work, like, "Oh, you don't know what you're doing!"
I'm sure he wishes he could be with you. It's a less than desirable situation, but we do what we have to. Like me, being gome 3.5 days a week.
I hate it.