I've got a friend who loves me; I've got a house; I've got a car...

Things are beginning to even out a bit so that I have been able to sleep some. Every day is different, but as a whole, things are becoming less stressful.

We had a busy day yesterday. I had to go to Chattanooga to buy diapers at Babies r Us. I also ended up spending an extra $40 on a new bra that I did not want to spend due to an embarrassing leaking incident. After that I had to take Emmaline to see the doctor because she has a rash that was spreading, and I was becoming concerned about. It turns out she has a severe case of Eczema and hypersensitive skin like Sadie had.

Our big plans for the evening were to go and visit an old friend of mine that I used to go to church with and haven't seen in a long time. She has 4 kids that are 18, 16, 14, and 12. Of course, being teenagers, only her 12 year old son was home, but we still had a great time! I was thrilled to be able to catch up and have adult conversation, and she and her son both LOVED my kids. We ate, played, looked at photos, let Sadie play with a kitty and just were able to unwind a bit.

Unfortunately, we had such a good time that we got home really late and Miss Sadie gave me a run for my money when it was time to go to bed. Emmaline slept remarkably well, though. I was surprised!

Today was a bit of a lazy day. I did have to go to Wal-Mart to collect the various skin care products that would be safe for Baby Emmaline. When we left the house, I decided to stop by the Garden Center first to see my parents. My mom immediately took Sadie and let her play in the fountains. She was soaking wet! The spare outfit that I had for her in the diaper bag was just a tshirt and jeans. It was SO HOT outside that my mom would not let me put the jeans on her, and she was just in a shirt and her diaper. So, completely humiliated, I took my child to Wal-Mart just as she was. I felt like such white trash! From now on, I will pack a better bag so this NEVER happens again!

In the meantime, we are just staying focused and positive and adjusting to being here without Jordan. It really helps that I have been in contact with some long lost friends. Somehow everything is falling into place...